releasing the struggles..over and over!

"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." John 16:33

I get so caught up in myself, caught up in my struggles with my demons. I make them so big in my mind and get all tangled up--so much so that I feel I need to leave everything and everyone behind--including my husband and daughter. I am not speaking of dying, but just leaving.. packing up and heading out but, unfortunately, myself will always follow. I know, I know, this sounds horrible, but this is the degree to which this struggle has plagued me. But, I came upon an enlightenment this morning as I was listening to Rita Springer--in this particular song she says "I'm grabbing onto the garments of grace." And it hit me, I need to hold onto His grace and never let go. My God is so, so much bigger than any struggle I could ever conceive in my mind. His Grace Is Enough! These are words and "concepts" that are not new to me, but this time I take them to heart. I make them my prayer. I accept this struggle, Lord, I hold onto it, make it make me feel miserable and ashamed, unworthy of your death and resurrection........... Now, I release it to you. I will rest in your everlasting grace.