trying not to think about it

Just doing a little "venting" here... I'm thinking about how stuff at work is really ticking me off.. but in the scheme of things, is it really worth it to get worked up over this? Um, no, it's not. So, I'm going to try and focus on something else besides for myself. Yeah, stuff is screwed-up, but it's not in my control so I need to let it go.

Instead, I should think about how Jeremy Camp is going to be on KLOVE in a few minutes. yippee..

"There will be a day, with no more tears, No more pain, no more fears, There will be a day when the burdens of this place will be no more, we'll see Jesus face to face!" Jeremy Camp

Hebrews 4:12-13
"For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account."

Jeremy Camp Live

www.jeremycamplive.com

I'm so excited, Jeremy Camp's new album comes out today with live recordings of their tunes. I love this band and I'm so thankful they are so bold for Christ.

Desperation

I was listening to a devotional by Jeremy Camp for his song "Surrender," and I was really, completely touched by something he said that I had to write it down. In it, Jeremy Camp says : "The more I walk with the Lord, the closer my walk goes with Him, the more I realize my desperation for Him." I just love this, because it reminds me of the writings of Paul.. "For He has said unto me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.' Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore, I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties for the sake of Christ, for when I am weak, then I am strong." II Corinthians 12:9-11 (I'm thankful to say I typed that from memory.) In this, I remind myself that when I struggle with something it just allows me to lean on Him more.. that I am desperate for Him!
The quote was taken from one of Jeremy Camp's devotionals for the song "Surrender." It's a reminder that we need to come before the King and daily surrender to Him.
Purify this tainted soul
I'm tired of living life a fool
Soften up this hardened clay
To be a servant this I pray
A reflection of you I long to be
So your kingdom I will seek
I surrender to your throne
I will make my heart your home
Oh I surrender to your throne
I've taken things I thought my own
Only to reap what I've sown
You've given back the years I've fought
Unending love and grace you've brought
Eterna hope and peace you bring
And forever unto you I will sing
I surrender to your throne......Jeremy Camp

releasing the struggles..over and over!

"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." John 16:33

I get so caught up in myself, caught up in my struggles with my demons. I make them so big in my mind and get all tangled up--so much so that I feel I need to leave everything and everyone behind--including my husband and daughter. I am not speaking of dying, but just leaving.. packing up and heading out but, unfortunately, myself will always follow. I know, I know, this sounds horrible, but this is the degree to which this struggle has plagued me. But, I came upon an enlightenment this morning as I was listening to Rita Springer--in this particular song she says "I'm grabbing onto the garments of grace." And it hit me, I need to hold onto His grace and never let go. My God is so, so much bigger than any struggle I could ever conceive in my mind. His Grace Is Enough! These are words and "concepts" that are not new to me, but this time I take them to heart. I make them my prayer. I accept this struggle, Lord, I hold onto it, make it make me feel miserable and ashamed, unworthy of your death and resurrection........... Now, I release it to you. I will rest in your everlasting grace.